Sorry about the delay, again. Our oldest (and my favorite) laptop finally succumbed to the virus', and our newest (and the one I almost loathe) had been stepped on, so it's almost impossible to use. Luckily, I can pull some MacGyver tricks and use it. It just drives my slightly batty.
There's been a lot in the past few weeks. We took another trip to Philadelphia. It was just a follow up, to be sure all our plans for surgery are still on track. This appointment, although short, was important. We had a year break, so the doc wanted to be sure the surgery was still needed. A little refresher on the surgery. It will be to nick the tendons on top of the hip to help release those contractions, putting her in a better position to stand. The end result of the appointment was mediocre. The doc is pleased with her progress, and we will hopefully return July/August for surgery. We'll stay for a week; do some therapy and get her fitted for new braces before the surgery, have the surgery, then come home. Then return in a month to get the new braces and her casts off. All in all, it was a nice, smooth trip.
She also had a few other appointments with doctors here at our local Shriner's. Anabelle has a follow up with an ENT for her torticollis. He also is pleased with her progress, and said she should be able to avoid surgery. Which is great because I didn't even know that was in the cards! It's still very noticeable, especially when she is tired. The other appointment was a follow up with her upper extremities ortho. We talked about possibly doing dorsal carpal wedge osteotomy on one of her wrists. It's been decided after talking to wait and see how she is mobile after her legs are taken care of. It may be better for her to leave her wrists as is if she does use a wheelchair later. It'd be easier for her to transfer with flexed (bent) wrists rather than wrists stuck in extension (out straight). We plan to follow up in another 6 months. She also had a photo shoot so we could collaborate with the upper doc in Philly and see what he thinks. Luckily Ana has an amazing occupational therapist who accompanied us to this appointment. It helped to have someone there who spoke the same language as the doctor, and convey what we really wanted to. And just like the two doctors before, this one was just as pleased with Miss Bear's progress. We also got to show off Ana's WREX, although her doc didn't seemed to impressed. She didn't even ask for a demo. It's ok, Ana's still getting use to it.
Feeding therapy has also been in the picture lately. Not sure if I mentioned it before. Her therapist is happy with how in love with food this little one is. We are still under the directive to not even attempt to replace nutrition in any way with oral feeding, but with how much this girl loves her food, it's hard not to think she's getting tons of nutrition out of it. Looking back, she really has come so far with her breathing and eating. It's amazing to see.
Until the next time I feel like pretending to be McGyver...
With love,
The Polks
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Sunday, April 20, 2014
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Helllo 2014!
Hey there! It's me, Kayla. I know, it's been a while. If I thought we were a busy family before... Let me take a moment and catch you up!
Miss Anabelle just turned TWO! I still can't believe it. She's such a big kid now. She talks and understands more than I am ready for. This year she was able to eat her cake! Although, she wasn't interested in the cake as much as she devoured the icing.
I will (mostly out of need) to keep it brief. I find myself starting an update, getting distracted, forgetting what I have already wrote, then just start over. I've done this about 8 times now...
In brief... Anabelle is eating orally now! She's still working on certain textures, but the desire is there. She loves eating. As apparent in the photo above. She does still eat through her feeding tube, which is a G-tube now. We have switched from a formula diet to a blended foods diet. At first, we were really crazy and counted calories and milliliters and charted and went crazy. Then meet with a nutritionist. She advised us to add protein and just put whatever we feed the older girls into a blend, and wa la. We have a 2 week follow up in 6 days. She's already gained 2 pounds. In just over a week. After 8 months of nothing... It's pretty spectacular.
She's a scooting pro now. At times she does get frustrated because her sisters can outrun her. We are practicing with a power wheelchair in physical therapy, and she's doing alright. She's also practicing with a gait trainer. It's a tad too big for her still, so the focus is to get her comfortable in it.
Also.. Ana is now the proud owner of an exoskeleton. Her's is for her arms. You may have see an article circulating around.. and it's similar to that. She is also a work in progress with using this. Tonight she actually scooted over to it and asked for her arms. Then got distracted and changed her mind to shoes.
Speaking of arms.. I recently spoke with Anabelle's uppers doctor. We talked about surgery. The surgery is called a dorsal carpal wedge osteotomy. She would also a procedure to help take Ana's thumb out of her palm a little. We have a follow up next month, so I'll post more then.
Oh, and boy does this kid have attitude. She is very vocal. Sometimes she may not being saying words necessarily, but she will make sure you know how she is feeling. I feel she is getting frustrated with not being able to always communicate her needs, or do it herself, so she becomes Monster Ana. She actually had her first time out last night because of it. I mean... you think she's so small and cute and nice... just wait until you are in the path of something she wants. Let's put it like this, she has no in-between. It's high or low. Happy or Freak Out. The terrible twos have hit the Polk house yet again. So, it's something we're working on.
Amelia and Allison are really showing more interest in her. Before their interest primarily laid in helping with the baby, not so much in the baby itself. Don't get me wrong, they still cuddled and loved her. But now they play with her. They are including her and realizing knows what's going on now. All of this is just age stuff. And she's finally caught up to where she's realizing (to a certain point) what they are playing, and plays along. It's wonderful to see the bonds they are creating.
And that's a 'brief' update. I will post again on Sunday. If I don't, please hold me accountable! I am so easily distracted, it's not even funny.
With love,
The Polks
Miss Anabelle just turned TWO! I still can't believe it. She's such a big kid now. She talks and understands more than I am ready for. This year she was able to eat her cake! Although, she wasn't interested in the cake as much as she devoured the icing.
I will (mostly out of need) to keep it brief. I find myself starting an update, getting distracted, forgetting what I have already wrote, then just start over. I've done this about 8 times now...
In brief... Anabelle is eating orally now! She's still working on certain textures, but the desire is there. She loves eating. As apparent in the photo above. She does still eat through her feeding tube, which is a G-tube now. We have switched from a formula diet to a blended foods diet. At first, we were really crazy and counted calories and milliliters and charted and went crazy. Then meet with a nutritionist. She advised us to add protein and just put whatever we feed the older girls into a blend, and wa la. We have a 2 week follow up in 6 days. She's already gained 2 pounds. In just over a week. After 8 months of nothing... It's pretty spectacular.
She's a scooting pro now. At times she does get frustrated because her sisters can outrun her. We are practicing with a power wheelchair in physical therapy, and she's doing alright. She's also practicing with a gait trainer. It's a tad too big for her still, so the focus is to get her comfortable in it.
Also.. Ana is now the proud owner of an exoskeleton. Her's is for her arms. You may have see an article circulating around.. and it's similar to that. She is also a work in progress with using this. Tonight she actually scooted over to it and asked for her arms. Then got distracted and changed her mind to shoes.
Speaking of arms.. I recently spoke with Anabelle's uppers doctor. We talked about surgery. The surgery is called a dorsal carpal wedge osteotomy. She would also a procedure to help take Ana's thumb out of her palm a little. We have a follow up next month, so I'll post more then.
Oh, and boy does this kid have attitude. She is very vocal. Sometimes she may not being saying words necessarily, but she will make sure you know how she is feeling. I feel she is getting frustrated with not being able to always communicate her needs, or do it herself, so she becomes Monster Ana. She actually had her first time out last night because of it. I mean... you think she's so small and cute and nice... just wait until you are in the path of something she wants. Let's put it like this, she has no in-between. It's high or low. Happy or Freak Out. The terrible twos have hit the Polk house yet again. So, it's something we're working on.
Amelia and Allison are really showing more interest in her. Before their interest primarily laid in helping with the baby, not so much in the baby itself. Don't get me wrong, they still cuddled and loved her. But now they play with her. They are including her and realizing knows what's going on now. All of this is just age stuff. And she's finally caught up to where she's realizing (to a certain point) what they are playing, and plays along. It's wonderful to see the bonds they are creating.
And that's a 'brief' update. I will post again on Sunday. If I don't, please hold me accountable! I am so easily distracted, it's not even funny.
With love,
The Polks
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Quick update
I realized that I haven't updated as much as I should! In over a month actually... I apologize..
What's new with Miss Anabear?
Well, she's learning to use her arms to the best way she can. She will swing her arms and knock things over, or use her mouth.
She's still working on scooting. It's kind of hit a wall, so we're talking with her therapists about getting something to help.
She still refuses to say 'mama'. Even though she tries. She looks intensely at our mouths as we say it and tries.
When we got home from our last Philly trip we had to change her tube. I think I updated about that. NIGHTMARE! Then about a week ago the tube broke again. Now, Anabelle has/had a straight J tube. And the size she had only came in a tube that had an external portion, 'high-profile'. Like the picture below. Except (obviously) that's not Ana, it's a photo off of the internet. Hopefully I don't get in trouble because of it. :)
What's new with Miss Anabear?
Well, she's learning to use her arms to the best way she can. She will swing her arms and knock things over, or use her mouth.
She's still working on scooting. It's kind of hit a wall, so we're talking with her therapists about getting something to help.
She still refuses to say 'mama'. Even though she tries. She looks intensely at our mouths as we say it and tries.
When we got home from our last Philly trip we had to change her tube. I think I updated about that. NIGHTMARE! Then about a week ago the tube broke again. Now, Anabelle has/had a straight J tube. And the size she had only came in a tube that had an external portion, 'high-profile'. Like the picture below. Except (obviously) that's not Ana, it's a photo off of the internet. Hopefully I don't get in trouble because of it. :)
So when it broke for the second time in roughly a month, I was done with it! We took her to the ER, because it was after hours. I had the ER call her GI doctor, because I wasn't able to get a hold of her. Finally we talk, and come up with a plan. We switched her to a low-profile GJ tube. The picture below isn't wonderful. I'm not sure why there is an apple in it.. But I hope it makes sense. The very top (where the apple is) is what lays against her belly. Then the balloon (the bottom of the apple) is what is inside her belly, along with the rest of the tubing. That way the only part sticking out is flat. It's wonderful. And since the main issues with the straight J-tube are that they broke on the outside, I am hoping this is much better. Plus, we get to see if she will tolerate food through the G-tube again. We haven't tried it yet, because she's been sick, but it's an option!
We meet with her GI last week. She isn't gaining enough weight. She has a registered dietitian (RD) that comes in before the doc, and we discuss options. It's nice to have that available! She said she'd like Ana to be gaining around 15 grams a day, and she's around 2.5. So she's plateaued. Which is difficult because she doesn't tolerate a high volume of food. And in a larger picture it's frusterating because I'd love her to be on a blended diet (BD). Which is literally food, blended. Then we push it through a syringe to feed her, rather then being on a pump. But we can't BD feed her through her J tube, per her RD. And I'm nervous about trying to feed her again through her G. So we are waiting until she is better to try it out and see if we can't get her on a BD through her G. That way we can add more calories, she won't be hooked up all the time, she's getting REAL food.. just good all around.
Let's see, what else. We are STILL trying to coordinate a procedure. Well. Procedure/surgery now. We're still waiting for them to get their stuff together and do a bronchoscopy and the Botox injection in her neck. We had a meeting with her ENT doc, and he said he agrees that removing her adenoids would be beneficial. So now we're adding that on to it. It's a lot, but it's not the easiest for her to be put under multiple times.. I feel bad for doing so much to her at once, but the risks are less if it's once rather then three separate times. Plus, she gets put under so much already, why not try and combine? But we've been waiting for just the bronch since around December.. so we'll see. I've expressed my frustrations plenty, I just hope they understand.
After we do the all of that, next step depends on the results. If her Pulmonologist thinks that we can move forward with another swallow study, we will. If not, then we discuss. I talked with her ENT, and if the reason she aspirates is other than her just being underdeveloped, then it'd be surgical. And if it's surgical, most likely it's be very invasive surgery. We're hoping not go have to even discuss it further than that. We're hoping her muscles are just immature and need to develop more.
But boy oh boy does that girl love to taste food! A few nights back we had a lazy pizza dinner night. And Alli was sitting on the couch next to Ana, and Ana leaned over and started to suck on her pizza! I was also on the couch, so I let her taste the sauce, and she was in love! She was very upset with me when I had to take it away. She's starting to bite food now. It's amazing, yes, but terrifying for me. I am scared she is going to take a bit and aspirate a whole bit of actual food. AH! I don't think her doctor would be pleased with me. I don't even know really what would happen, I hope she wouldn't choke. But ugh. It's wonderful she understands that's what you do, but terrifying.
Other then those big things, the only other thing is that we are moving! We're moving closer to family, so it will be nice. It's where Kyle and I grew up, so we're happy we get to raise our girls there too. Only downside is we have to switch therapists. Which is a huge downside. Once that I didn't realize until after we had everything set up to move. Not only do we have to start over, but I'm nervous it will take Ana a long time (again) to get use to new people. People that move her and make her work.. She's one determined little girl. If she doesn't want to do something, rarely are you going to get her to do it.
Thanks again for keeping in the loop with Anabear! And the support and love! It's amazing to look back on the past year plus and see how far our little fighter has come! Like I always say, we wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you :)
With love,
The Polks
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Just keep swimming
I started out writing this post a few days ago. Then put it off, then got busy. I think I delay updating because it makes it a little to real sometimes. Sorry. It's easy to go through the motions and not think due to being to distracted by what is currently happening. And our hospital and doctors are very into having us make big decisions. So we focus on that instead of, "Hey, this is all really happening to our infant daughter."
So here it goes.. as always, very busy little girl.
Yesterday she had her surgery. Her surgeon found a port small enough for Anabelle. Which was so exciting, that way she didn't have to have a broviac, meaning there are no extra cords or tubing sticking out of her. So she had the port place, had a muscle biopsy and they switch her J-tube to the same type of tube, just a new tube.
So in preop, we meet the anesthesiologist. After looking over her veins, he asked us why we were getting a port, and that she has great veins. ARE YOU SERIOUS?! This has been something Kyle and I have been deliberating over. Because it is optional. But then we keep reminding ourselves that winter is coming, and that we don't want her to go through what she's been through for blood or an IV one more time. Plus, if she gets sick again, and dehydrated, and they can't get an IV started, she could go into shock and things could be 100% worse. Thanks Dr. Anesthesiologist for making us doubt our decision in the 12th hour. Thankfully her surgeon (who has known her since birth) agreed with us and went forward with the port.
The surgery took longer then expected. The surgeon said it should all take about two hours. When the 1 hour 45 min mark came, I called back just to see where they were, how she was doing, etc. The nurse said that they just finished the port placement and J-tube, and were starting the muscle biopsy. AH. Why? What happened? Is she ok? Well.. she is/was fine.
The issue was the doctor had a tough time placing the port due to her anatomy. I understood what that meant when I saw her. Typically a port goes right around or below the collar bone. She had about 4 nicks where he attempted to place it there, then one on her neck covered with a steri-strip. He ended up placing it on her side, below her chest, but kind of on her ribs. There is a little cut about an inch or so above it where he cut to place it. Before we got to see Anabelle, the surgeon talked to us. He explained all of this to us. We were scared, having no idea what to expect and all and asked how she was. He said she was fine, she did great. But that he was frustrated and not thrilled with what he had to do. He didn't like where he had to put it, and that it is going to her jugular, rather then normally coming out by the heart area (from my understanding). But that it is fine, will all work the same and she won't know the difference. This was huge coming from him. He is a very reserved fellow, who only talks when he needs to, and doesn't speak very loud. Him telling us how he was frustrated made me realize how different Anabelle's body is then other kids.
But all in all it went pretty smoothly. The anesthesiologist let us know, again, that she has a small airway, and it was difficult to intubate her. But it was nice because he gave me pointers to let the next anesthesiologist know ahead of time what to expect and how to make it easier.
We finally got to see our baby girl about 4 hours after handing her over. She was not a happy baby. We discussed which pain meds to give to her with the nurse. She said Morphine. I was TERRIFIED. The last time she had Morphine was after her Gastroschisis repair. And she was on a ventilator for 5 days. And they had to bag her time and time again. Like I said, the hospital is very parent guided. Great. Make me make this choice while my daughter is waking up from surgery, in pain... Ok, let's do it. Her normal dose would be 1.5 MLs, and we started out at .2 MLs. About 15 minutes later we realized that didn't do much. So she got another .2 MLs. Then she was feeling much much better. No more crying. Her crying wasn't full on crying, it was more like whimpering. And no side effects!! She did wonderful with it! Still hate giving it to her... but it worked. Then we were still suppose to go home that same day. Neither Kyle or I felt comfortable with that since she had so much done. We just didn't feel comfortable we could control her pain, and what happens if her breathing acts up? Nooo thank you. Finally her surgeon said we could stay overnight. Oh, and I got my honorary nursing degree yesterday too. I wish it could work in real life and I could skip the schooling.. Ana's nurse in recover just mentioned how I know everything about her and how I could do everything she was doing. So maybe I could just be Ana's nurse :)
Later that night the nurse on the floor was giving Ana her meds, and she clogged her brand new tube. Now... I've done this countless times, so I knew it could be unclogged and didn't panic. But I guess her nurse is new, because she mentioned, 'Great, the rookie nurse clogged your tube.' Next time ya might want to keep that thought in your head, just sayin'. So I walked her through it. Told her what to grab to unclog it. But man, she clogged that thing up good... It was tough to get undone, but after about 20 minutes it was done.
Anabelle slept all night, with only waking up her and there to whimper and complain. But overall her pain was controlled. She did have some weird breathing until about 11 PM. She was breathing like you would after a good hard cry. Kind of a hyperventilating breathing. But she got Tylenol with codeine at 10, and by 11 it stopped.
I do have to mention that after she got her Morphine and opened her eyes in the recovery room, we got a few half heart-ed smiles out of her :)
In other news..earlier this week we meet with her GI. She has plateaued with her weight. She is hovering around 11 lbs now. She wants us to slowly increase her feeds again, until she can no longer tolerate it. We have to find her threshold. We think that with the extra therapy, and how she is almost always sweating, that she is burning to many calories. And since we can't stop either of those things... So she was at 16 ML/hour, and the GI wants us to go up 1 ML every day to every other day. As we see fit. Another thing where it's great because we went to medical school and all.
I really can't complain. I would be upset if they were telling us what to do and not asking our opinion. It just makes me nervous because I'm not a nurse, a doctor, or anything close to having any say over anything medical. We will see how far up we can get Anabelle. The goal is at least 20, but who knows what she needs, it might be higher. Her GI is trying to avoid the use of TPN. It can cause liver failure, and we don't need to go down that road. She is a big advocate of NOT using it.
In family news!
Allison started preschool (the same day as surgery...)!!! She will be in school 5 hours a day, for 5 days a week! She said that she liked it and had a good time. Of course I feel horrible though. Since it was planned the same day as surgery, we didn't pick her up and Kyle's mom did. Thankfully we have someone to do it (Thanks Cindy!), but it's something I would want to have been able to do. She did get cut on the chin by a little boy though... :(
And Amelia had her first day in a 5 hour class, with a new teacher. She said that she liked it too!! And that she had fun, which is such a huge relief. OH. I called during the day to check on them. The teacher said that Amelia didn't take her nap, as usual. But she kept saying that she had to go potty. This is her way of avoiding naps and bed time. But every time she got up she did her business, so I guess you can't get too mad.
But they are such awesome little girls. The other day Amelia asked if the doctors were going to cut Anabelle. We have decided it is best to keep the girls in the loop, and try to prepare them and explain things about Anabelle as best as we can. We don't keep anything a secret, we are an open book with them. I know they are only toddlers, but.. we think its best. We'll see how it plays out in a few years, but, for now we are doing what we think is best.
I digress. She asked about the doctors cutting Ana. I said yes, they are going to do it tomorrow. She got up and come over to us (I was holding her), and said how she doesn't want the doctors to cut her. We explained what they were doing, and why. What to expect the after, and how she will need to be careful with her. She said that she was sad, and that she didn't want them to cut her. And how she wanted to cry. Oh. My. Goodness. I love her!!!! She didn't cry. But just to know that she is so mature at four to realize this, and what's going one. Meanwhile, Allison is in the background jumping up and down, saying, 'They're going to cut her', kind of in a singing voice...
Now, some might think this is horrible, because it's too much on a four year old. You might be right. To me though, I interpret it as her understanding what her baby sister is going through, showing proper emotions, and showing that she loves and cares about her sister.
With each passing day Anabelle is getting better and stronger. Tomorrow we get to schedule an appointment to use her port for a blood draw. I'm terrified. I'm scared that it will still hurt, but mostly I'm scared it won't work. We will see...
But we appreciate everyone's support, prayers, thoughts and good vibes through everything. It really makes a difference knowing people are there for us, and more importantly for Anabelle. Thank you!
With love,
The Polks
So here it goes.. as always, very busy little girl.
Yesterday she had her surgery. Her surgeon found a port small enough for Anabelle. Which was so exciting, that way she didn't have to have a broviac, meaning there are no extra cords or tubing sticking out of her. So she had the port place, had a muscle biopsy and they switch her J-tube to the same type of tube, just a new tube.
So in preop, we meet the anesthesiologist. After looking over her veins, he asked us why we were getting a port, and that she has great veins. ARE YOU SERIOUS?! This has been something Kyle and I have been deliberating over. Because it is optional. But then we keep reminding ourselves that winter is coming, and that we don't want her to go through what she's been through for blood or an IV one more time. Plus, if she gets sick again, and dehydrated, and they can't get an IV started, she could go into shock and things could be 100% worse. Thanks Dr. Anesthesiologist for making us doubt our decision in the 12th hour. Thankfully her surgeon (who has known her since birth) agreed with us and went forward with the port.
The surgery took longer then expected. The surgeon said it should all take about two hours. When the 1 hour 45 min mark came, I called back just to see where they were, how she was doing, etc. The nurse said that they just finished the port placement and J-tube, and were starting the muscle biopsy. AH. Why? What happened? Is she ok? Well.. she is/was fine.
The issue was the doctor had a tough time placing the port due to her anatomy. I understood what that meant when I saw her. Typically a port goes right around or below the collar bone. She had about 4 nicks where he attempted to place it there, then one on her neck covered with a steri-strip. He ended up placing it on her side, below her chest, but kind of on her ribs. There is a little cut about an inch or so above it where he cut to place it. Before we got to see Anabelle, the surgeon talked to us. He explained all of this to us. We were scared, having no idea what to expect and all and asked how she was. He said she was fine, she did great. But that he was frustrated and not thrilled with what he had to do. He didn't like where he had to put it, and that it is going to her jugular, rather then normally coming out by the heart area (from my understanding). But that it is fine, will all work the same and she won't know the difference. This was huge coming from him. He is a very reserved fellow, who only talks when he needs to, and doesn't speak very loud. Him telling us how he was frustrated made me realize how different Anabelle's body is then other kids.
But all in all it went pretty smoothly. The anesthesiologist let us know, again, that she has a small airway, and it was difficult to intubate her. But it was nice because he gave me pointers to let the next anesthesiologist know ahead of time what to expect and how to make it easier.
We finally got to see our baby girl about 4 hours after handing her over. She was not a happy baby. We discussed which pain meds to give to her with the nurse. She said Morphine. I was TERRIFIED. The last time she had Morphine was after her Gastroschisis repair. And she was on a ventilator for 5 days. And they had to bag her time and time again. Like I said, the hospital is very parent guided. Great. Make me make this choice while my daughter is waking up from surgery, in pain... Ok, let's do it. Her normal dose would be 1.5 MLs, and we started out at .2 MLs. About 15 minutes later we realized that didn't do much. So she got another .2 MLs. Then she was feeling much much better. No more crying. Her crying wasn't full on crying, it was more like whimpering. And no side effects!! She did wonderful with it! Still hate giving it to her... but it worked. Then we were still suppose to go home that same day. Neither Kyle or I felt comfortable with that since she had so much done. We just didn't feel comfortable we could control her pain, and what happens if her breathing acts up? Nooo thank you. Finally her surgeon said we could stay overnight. Oh, and I got my honorary nursing degree yesterday too. I wish it could work in real life and I could skip the schooling.. Ana's nurse in recover just mentioned how I know everything about her and how I could do everything she was doing. So maybe I could just be Ana's nurse :)
Later that night the nurse on the floor was giving Ana her meds, and she clogged her brand new tube. Now... I've done this countless times, so I knew it could be unclogged and didn't panic. But I guess her nurse is new, because she mentioned, 'Great, the rookie nurse clogged your tube.' Next time ya might want to keep that thought in your head, just sayin'. So I walked her through it. Told her what to grab to unclog it. But man, she clogged that thing up good... It was tough to get undone, but after about 20 minutes it was done.
Anabelle slept all night, with only waking up her and there to whimper and complain. But overall her pain was controlled. She did have some weird breathing until about 11 PM. She was breathing like you would after a good hard cry. Kind of a hyperventilating breathing. But she got Tylenol with codeine at 10, and by 11 it stopped.
I do have to mention that after she got her Morphine and opened her eyes in the recovery room, we got a few half heart-ed smiles out of her :)
In other news..earlier this week we meet with her GI. She has plateaued with her weight. She is hovering around 11 lbs now. She wants us to slowly increase her feeds again, until she can no longer tolerate it. We have to find her threshold. We think that with the extra therapy, and how she is almost always sweating, that she is burning to many calories. And since we can't stop either of those things... So she was at 16 ML/hour, and the GI wants us to go up 1 ML every day to every other day. As we see fit. Another thing where it's great because we went to medical school and all.
I really can't complain. I would be upset if they were telling us what to do and not asking our opinion. It just makes me nervous because I'm not a nurse, a doctor, or anything close to having any say over anything medical. We will see how far up we can get Anabelle. The goal is at least 20, but who knows what she needs, it might be higher. Her GI is trying to avoid the use of TPN. It can cause liver failure, and we don't need to go down that road. She is a big advocate of NOT using it.
In family news!
Allison started preschool (the same day as surgery...)!!! She will be in school 5 hours a day, for 5 days a week! She said that she liked it and had a good time. Of course I feel horrible though. Since it was planned the same day as surgery, we didn't pick her up and Kyle's mom did. Thankfully we have someone to do it (Thanks Cindy!), but it's something I would want to have been able to do. She did get cut on the chin by a little boy though... :(
And Amelia had her first day in a 5 hour class, with a new teacher. She said that she liked it too!! And that she had fun, which is such a huge relief. OH. I called during the day to check on them. The teacher said that Amelia didn't take her nap, as usual. But she kept saying that she had to go potty. This is her way of avoiding naps and bed time. But every time she got up she did her business, so I guess you can't get too mad.
But they are such awesome little girls. The other day Amelia asked if the doctors were going to cut Anabelle. We have decided it is best to keep the girls in the loop, and try to prepare them and explain things about Anabelle as best as we can. We don't keep anything a secret, we are an open book with them. I know they are only toddlers, but.. we think its best. We'll see how it plays out in a few years, but, for now we are doing what we think is best.
I digress. She asked about the doctors cutting Ana. I said yes, they are going to do it tomorrow. She got up and come over to us (I was holding her), and said how she doesn't want the doctors to cut her. We explained what they were doing, and why. What to expect the after, and how she will need to be careful with her. She said that she was sad, and that she didn't want them to cut her. And how she wanted to cry. Oh. My. Goodness. I love her!!!! She didn't cry. But just to know that she is so mature at four to realize this, and what's going one. Meanwhile, Allison is in the background jumping up and down, saying, 'They're going to cut her', kind of in a singing voice...
Now, some might think this is horrible, because it's too much on a four year old. You might be right. To me though, I interpret it as her understanding what her baby sister is going through, showing proper emotions, and showing that she loves and cares about her sister.
With each passing day Anabelle is getting better and stronger. Tomorrow we get to schedule an appointment to use her port for a blood draw. I'm terrified. I'm scared that it will still hurt, but mostly I'm scared it won't work. We will see...
But we appreciate everyone's support, prayers, thoughts and good vibes through everything. It really makes a difference knowing people are there for us, and more importantly for Anabelle. Thank you!
With love,
The Polks
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Testing and guessing
Anabelle has been a busy busy little lady.
Let's see. Medical stuff...
She's finally back in serial casting.. It's been a while since her on and off again hospital stays and trips. She has seen Endrocrinology, a Pulmonology team (a nurse, dietitian, social worker, etc.), her Rehabilitation coordinator, and GI.
Endo wants blood. Pulmonology wants follow ups. Rehab wants therapy. GI wants the most.
GI wanted an X-ray to check what, I don't know. But we did it this morning. I swear she might grow up and glow from all of this radiation... From my understanding; depending on what her GI sees in the x-ray...maybe not.. on Monday we will switch her back to a G-tube. Then observe. This will be done in the office. We will wait and watch her reflux. Unfortunately I have a feeling that it will be the same. She's still refluxing with a J-Tube, and that goes straight the the small intestine and was suppose to fix all of our worries. So if she still has severe reflux that affects her breathing horribly, again, then we will do a Nissen fundoplication. (gotta love Wikipedia!) So if we do that then we will combine the muscle biopsy and broviac, or a long PICC, like she had when she was in the NICU, and the Nissen.
Man oh man. My hope is that by 7... 7 1/2 months... things will slow down and we will be settled and things will be smooooth. I feel like we're getting there.. Just a little hiccup in the road.
Like I've said, I'm back at work. And I have been asked more than once how Anabelle is. Honestly it doesn't bother me. It's just though because do you really want to know, because we're just passing by each other in the hall, and I can't fit it all in in these short 5 seconds. And also, I don't want some people to think I'm complaining, or being sad. It's just her story. I don't want them to feel bad or pity her or our family. We are blessed. Honestly. I look at her and always just imagine how much worse it could be. And how far she's come, and what a little trooper and fighter she is.
Like today! She had such an awesome day! She was laughing (which it's been a while since she's laughed), and was all smiles. And she watches what we do, interacts with us. And most of all doesn't let all of this medical junk get in her way of being her, a happy, loving life baby girl. I have to say though, I think she loves her sisters most. Every time they talk and play with her she is ALL smiles! They love to help so so much. I am so thankful that our family has come together so well and we can all just see our precious Ana :)
Hopefully we will have more answers as to what the next few weeks look like ahead by tomorrow.
Oh, and the prayers, good thoughts, vibes, mojo, can we please keep it coming? I really feel it's been working wonders. Thanks <3 font="font">
With love,
The Polks
Let's see. Medical stuff...
She's finally back in serial casting.. It's been a while since her on and off again hospital stays and trips. She has seen Endrocrinology, a Pulmonology team (a nurse, dietitian, social worker, etc.), her Rehabilitation coordinator, and GI.
Endo wants blood. Pulmonology wants follow ups. Rehab wants therapy. GI wants the most.
GI wanted an X-ray to check what, I don't know. But we did it this morning. I swear she might grow up and glow from all of this radiation... From my understanding; depending on what her GI sees in the x-ray...maybe not.. on Monday we will switch her back to a G-tube. Then observe. This will be done in the office. We will wait and watch her reflux. Unfortunately I have a feeling that it will be the same. She's still refluxing with a J-Tube, and that goes straight the the small intestine and was suppose to fix all of our worries. So if she still has severe reflux that affects her breathing horribly, again, then we will do a Nissen fundoplication. (gotta love Wikipedia!) So if we do that then we will combine the muscle biopsy and broviac, or a long PICC, like she had when she was in the NICU, and the Nissen.
Man oh man. My hope is that by 7... 7 1/2 months... things will slow down and we will be settled and things will be smooooth. I feel like we're getting there.. Just a little hiccup in the road.
Like I've said, I'm back at work. And I have been asked more than once how Anabelle is. Honestly it doesn't bother me. It's just though because do you really want to know, because we're just passing by each other in the hall, and I can't fit it all in in these short 5 seconds. And also, I don't want some people to think I'm complaining, or being sad. It's just her story. I don't want them to feel bad or pity her or our family. We are blessed. Honestly. I look at her and always just imagine how much worse it could be. And how far she's come, and what a little trooper and fighter she is.
Like today! She had such an awesome day! She was laughing (which it's been a while since she's laughed), and was all smiles. And she watches what we do, interacts with us. And most of all doesn't let all of this medical junk get in her way of being her, a happy, loving life baby girl. I have to say though, I think she loves her sisters most. Every time they talk and play with her she is ALL smiles! They love to help so so much. I am so thankful that our family has come together so well and we can all just see our precious Ana :)
Hopefully we will have more answers as to what the next few weeks look like ahead by tomorrow.
Oh, and the prayers, good thoughts, vibes, mojo, can we please keep it coming? I really feel it's been working wonders. Thanks <3 font="font">
With love,
The Polks
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Oh Mic-key you're so fine!
You're so fine you blow my mind! Hey Mic-key!
Hope you get the song reference. :)
I'm getting tired of this feeding tube now.... If you don't know, they type of feeding tube Ana has is called a 'Mic-key button'. We've had trouble with granulation tissue, leaking, kids accidentally pulling it, problems traveling, clogs, and then Saturday morning at 5:45 am the balloon popped and it came out! You can imagine I panicked!!! I know I know. The book says 'If the balloon comes out, DO NOT PANIC!' No lie.
So I try to gather my beans. I try to put in her back up tube. But of course I can't find the jelly. So Kyle runs to the store. We get it all set up. Then we it all set up. I can't put the darn thing in, I think I'm too scared to hurt her. Luckily we had a foley and I was able to get that in easily, but not able to inflate the balloon. See, with the button and the foley there is a balloon on the end of them. It helps keep them from slipping out, or going to far in. So I call her surgeon's office and they say to go to the ER. So I go. And wait. And wait. They put it back in. But they have to do an x-ray before allowing me to feed her because they want to make sure it's in place. So we wait. And wait. All the while she isn't eating. In total she waited about 3 hours to eat. Which is a big stretch for her. She is literally ALWAYS eating. She was mad at us.
But all in all, she is fine now. The Mic-key's are suppose to last months, and this lasted us just over 2 weeks. My faith in them has dropped significantly.
This week we've had a few important appointments. Monday we meet again with her GI. She is pushing us right along to have her switched from a G-tube to a J-tube. Again, the difference is a G-tube feeds right into the stomach. A J-tube feeds right into the small intestines. With a G-tube, if she isn't absorbing the food fast enough, it just sits there in her stomach ready to come up any given second and give her reflux. The J-tube allows us to bypass this step, and she still gets everything she needs. Later when she shows that she's grown and is ok, we can go back to the G-tube, and eventually no tube! :)
I called today and they finally got the J-tube in, so tomorrow we get to go in and swap them out. It's an outpatient procedure at the hospital. That is, if all goes well. I'm not anticipating any issues, but can't rule them out. They do have to take her to O.R., they do have to put her under general anesthesia. They do NOT have to make any new cuts. So technically it's not a surgery. Her surgeon said that a surgeon won't even do the procedure, it'll be a radiologist or something. Gah. Just a bit scared. She doesn't do great with anesthesia or narcotics. And the worst feeling is handing over your baby to be taken away and put under. I hate it.
Long story short, I think things will start getting better. We had an appointment today with another doctor. Not really sure his specialty still.. But basically he sets up care for everything! He is going to help us get CCS, because we were denied, he's going to help us with therapies, and much more. Just kind of guide us through the systems. We've been very very lucky though. We've had amazing doctors thus far. A few little hiccups, but they all have Anabelle's best interest at heart, so I can't ask for much more.
Wish us luck and send prayers, good vibes, thoughts, and mo-jo our way tomorrow please! We get to the hospital at 12:30, and she's scheduled to go back at 2:30. Thanks everyone! <3
With love,
The Polks
Hope you get the song reference. :)
I'm getting tired of this feeding tube now.... If you don't know, they type of feeding tube Ana has is called a 'Mic-key button'. We've had trouble with granulation tissue, leaking, kids accidentally pulling it, problems traveling, clogs, and then Saturday morning at 5:45 am the balloon popped and it came out! You can imagine I panicked!!! I know I know. The book says 'If the balloon comes out, DO NOT PANIC!' No lie.
So I try to gather my beans. I try to put in her back up tube. But of course I can't find the jelly. So Kyle runs to the store. We get it all set up. Then we it all set up. I can't put the darn thing in, I think I'm too scared to hurt her. Luckily we had a foley and I was able to get that in easily, but not able to inflate the balloon. See, with the button and the foley there is a balloon on the end of them. It helps keep them from slipping out, or going to far in. So I call her surgeon's office and they say to go to the ER. So I go. And wait. And wait. They put it back in. But they have to do an x-ray before allowing me to feed her because they want to make sure it's in place. So we wait. And wait. All the while she isn't eating. In total she waited about 3 hours to eat. Which is a big stretch for her. She is literally ALWAYS eating. She was mad at us.
But all in all, she is fine now. The Mic-key's are suppose to last months, and this lasted us just over 2 weeks. My faith in them has dropped significantly.
This week we've had a few important appointments. Monday we meet again with her GI. She is pushing us right along to have her switched from a G-tube to a J-tube. Again, the difference is a G-tube feeds right into the stomach. A J-tube feeds right into the small intestines. With a G-tube, if she isn't absorbing the food fast enough, it just sits there in her stomach ready to come up any given second and give her reflux. The J-tube allows us to bypass this step, and she still gets everything she needs. Later when she shows that she's grown and is ok, we can go back to the G-tube, and eventually no tube! :)
I called today and they finally got the J-tube in, so tomorrow we get to go in and swap them out. It's an outpatient procedure at the hospital. That is, if all goes well. I'm not anticipating any issues, but can't rule them out. They do have to take her to O.R., they do have to put her under general anesthesia. They do NOT have to make any new cuts. So technically it's not a surgery. Her surgeon said that a surgeon won't even do the procedure, it'll be a radiologist or something. Gah. Just a bit scared. She doesn't do great with anesthesia or narcotics. And the worst feeling is handing over your baby to be taken away and put under. I hate it.
Long story short, I think things will start getting better. We had an appointment today with another doctor. Not really sure his specialty still.. But basically he sets up care for everything! He is going to help us get CCS, because we were denied, he's going to help us with therapies, and much more. Just kind of guide us through the systems. We've been very very lucky though. We've had amazing doctors thus far. A few little hiccups, but they all have Anabelle's best interest at heart, so I can't ask for much more.
Wish us luck and send prayers, good vibes, thoughts, and mo-jo our way tomorrow please! We get to the hospital at 12:30, and she's scheduled to go back at 2:30. Thanks everyone! <3
With love,
The Polks
Friday, June 29, 2012
122-79 = 43
I just counted all of Anabelle's doctor appointments, ER visits, and hospital stays thus far, and it drives me crazy how much this little girl has to be bothered by doctors. I could have missed some doctor appointments because sometimes I don't get them written down, but this is what I counted as of today:
41 doctor appointments
36 days in the hospital
+2 ER visits
79 doctor things in her short 122 days of life
This means we've only had 43 days of relaxing. Ugh.
I have to share this story to get it off my chest. This past weekend we all went out as a family to a fundraiser. I was sitting their holding Anabelle as she was sleeping. People were walking back and forth, not really paying to much attention to us. But this one group of people... It appeared to be a family; mom, dad, older kids. The dad made it obvious to stare. I think he was staring at the bag that had medical tubing running from it to my daughter. But still.. just ask! As he walked toward us, he STARED. As he passed us, he STARED. As he walked past us, he STARED. I looked up and when he noticed me, he smiled. I said hi, he said hi back. And continued to stare. Seriously!? I wish I was more experienced with handling these situations. I know I will get there over the years. But c'mon man!
I just find it unfair. And right now I'm having one of those moments where I question why. Don't worry, it'll pass in a few minutes :)
Last week was suppose to be easy. On Monday we only had casting, P/T and a follow up with her surgeon. (Whom I love by the way!) But in about 30 minutes we added a sleep study and follow up with her pulmonologist.
First, her casting. It went awesome! Except she has a small pressure sore, so this set of cast only lasted a few days. They use soft casts so we can take them off at home if she needs, which is nice because she needed them off yesterday! But her doctor is so happy with her progress. Even though it's slow. But her knees will barely go hyper extended anymore! We're going forward still until he feels she hits a wall.
41 doctor appointments
36 days in the hospital
+2 ER visits
79 doctor things in her short 122 days of life
This means we've only had 43 days of relaxing. Ugh.
I have to share this story to get it off my chest. This past weekend we all went out as a family to a fundraiser. I was sitting their holding Anabelle as she was sleeping. People were walking back and forth, not really paying to much attention to us. But this one group of people... It appeared to be a family; mom, dad, older kids. The dad made it obvious to stare. I think he was staring at the bag that had medical tubing running from it to my daughter. But still.. just ask! As he walked toward us, he STARED. As he passed us, he STARED. As he walked past us, he STARED. I looked up and when he noticed me, he smiled. I said hi, he said hi back. And continued to stare. Seriously!? I wish I was more experienced with handling these situations. I know I will get there over the years. But c'mon man!
I just find it unfair. And right now I'm having one of those moments where I question why. Don't worry, it'll pass in a few minutes :)
Last week was suppose to be easy. On Monday we only had casting, P/T and a follow up with her surgeon. (Whom I love by the way!) But in about 30 minutes we added a sleep study and follow up with her pulmonologist.
First, her casting. It went awesome! Except she has a small pressure sore, so this set of cast only lasted a few days. They use soft casts so we can take them off at home if she needs, which is nice because she needed them off yesterday! But her doctor is so happy with her progress. Even though it's slow. But her knees will barely go hyper extended anymore! We're going forward still until he feels she hits a wall.
Just look how far she's come! From not even being able to take a picture of her legs separate to...
This!!
Progress! I asked the doc if he thinks she'll need braces (AFO's or KAFO's) to walk, and he said probably. Just because the muscle there isn't what she really needs to walk. But I'll take it! Now, he's not saying he's 100% sure he thinks she'll walk, but he said if she does. Now if he says no, we're getting a second opinion, of course.
Then we had P/T. She laughed for her p/t lady! She's only laughed a little for me, but this was a hardy full on laugh. Stinker butt. Overall though, she hates p/t.
Then the sleep study. Mind you this was all on Tuesday. Casts at 8, P/T at 3:30, then the sleep study from 7:30PM-6 AM. FUN day.
Wednesday we met with Dr. Chipps, her pulmonologist. He said that her sleep study was improving. Not good, not great, but better then the first two. Good news was she doesn't have to be on oxygen anymore, only when she needs it, and we don't have to see him again for 2 months! YAY!!!! I wanted to hug him! But he's not really a people person and I think he would have told us to find a new pulmonologist...
These past few days have been hard though. She's been really crabby. Little princess doesn't like to be put down. She likes to sleep chest to chest. Which makes sleeping for us muy difficult. I usually sleep on the couch with her so that she isn't crying all night. With our first two we'd let them try to sooth themselves. But Ana can't really do that. She has trouble keeping her binki in by herself, and we (I) always think it's something bad when she cries. 'Are her casts bugging her?' 'Is her reflux bad right now?' 'Does her tube hurt her?' 'Does she have gas?' And on and on and on. It's a guessing game.
But then she makes up for it. She'll relax and calm down, and give us the biggest smile ever! Underneath it all, she is a happy baby. At least she wants to be. She love talking to her sisters! She'll talk their ears off! And I think they love her too!
OH! And Amelia started preschool last week!
I know, my kids are cute :)
This weekend Kyle and I get a night away for my birthday :):):):)
Thanks Leah!!!!
Yes! A family member is crazy enough to take on all three of our kids overnight, plus their own! And we get to escape to San Francisco for the night, and go to Alcatraz. I am nervous, terrified, thrilled, scared, excited, panicked, and more all at the same time. I know we have enough equipment to make sure Ana stays safe and sound. It's just scary. And I know we're leaving her in capable hands. I don't doubt that. I just know it can be rough when Kyle and I are home, and we have just our own kids. Anabelle requires a lot of attention...
But we love her. So so much <3
With love,
The Polks
Friday, June 15, 2012
The small stuff
What a week. Poor Anabelle has had eight, yes, eight, appointments this week. I'll give a brief summary of the major ones.
Sleep study/back to pulmonology: We did another sleep study. It was horrible. They were trying to jam two cannulas into her little nose. One to measure the co2 output and one to give her oxygen. After several failed attempts, they just did the co2 cannula with some blow by. She was uncomfortable the entire night, was screaming every 5 minutes. Finally we both got about an hour of solid sleep after they started the blow by. We went back to the Pulmonologist. I guess they finally took it serious because we got to meet the actual doctor this time. He said her second study was better, only about 110 apneas. (Not sure if that is total or just obstuctive apneas). However, it's still dangerously high. We started her on 24/7 oxygen today, 2 liters. She hates it. I think she's warming up to it a little now though, she's sleeping! But he said we will repeat the sleep study, and if that doesn't work then try a CPAP, repeat, then if that still doesn't work we will discuss a trach. This doctor really understands what a big decision it is, and told me how we will make the decision together. Very comforting. Hopefully the oxygen works though! We will repeat the sleep study next week to see where we are. Oh, and he said if this continues long term it could lead to brain damage because she only breaths about half the time. Ah.
Physical therapy/Shriners: We had our first visit with outpatient therapy (not with Shriners). They showed us some stuff, mostly what we already know and do. We also meet met with Shriners hand specialists. She gave us some stretching excersises, and said we'll regroup in 3 months to see where we are at. But good news is Anabelles range of motion is great! She can flex her elbow's a little more then 90 degress, and extend about 30-45. She explained how Anabelle is a little backwards from typical AMC kids. I guess they usually see then with extended arms and flexed legs. But that's Anabelle! :D Nothing is 'normal' when it comes to her medical care. *sigh* But she said she is too small for splints right now, but maybe in 3 months we will try them. Also, she said she doesn't want to be too agressive because Anabelle will show us what she can do and needs help with, from there we will see what we can do to help her. She doesn't want to do something now that will damage her later.
GI: Since her reflux is still horrible, we have switched her to some RX formula. We have three to try, one a week. In three weeks we will follow up with GI and determine if anything helped and if not we will switch to a J-tube. It will help *hopefully* with the reflux, which in turn will help with her breathing. I love her GI. She doesn't fool around. She gets things done, and doesn't make us feel dumb when we have silly questions. And she has lots of energy. Maybe a little to much at times for this sleepy mom. I just pray this works!
Other than that, little Anabelle is just too cute! She smiles all the time now! And her big sister love love love her!!
Kyle and Amelia had a conversation the other day. I wasn't there so I could be misquoting.
Kyle - "You know Anabelle's special right?"
Amelia - "Yeah, like a present!"
Kyle - "Do you know what that means?"
Amelia -"Yeah, it's good!"
Melts my heart. They don't see her any different. Honestly I tear up when I just think about them together. Amelia wanted to cuddle with Ana, and actually sleep with her! Well.. I couldn't let her do that, but she just cuddled as long as she could. Ah! Got to love my kiddos. They remind me of what is important in life. <3
With love,
The Polks
Sleep study/back to pulmonology: We did another sleep study. It was horrible. They were trying to jam two cannulas into her little nose. One to measure the co2 output and one to give her oxygen. After several failed attempts, they just did the co2 cannula with some blow by. She was uncomfortable the entire night, was screaming every 5 minutes. Finally we both got about an hour of solid sleep after they started the blow by. We went back to the Pulmonologist. I guess they finally took it serious because we got to meet the actual doctor this time. He said her second study was better, only about 110 apneas. (Not sure if that is total or just obstuctive apneas). However, it's still dangerously high. We started her on 24/7 oxygen today, 2 liters. She hates it. I think she's warming up to it a little now though, she's sleeping! But he said we will repeat the sleep study, and if that doesn't work then try a CPAP, repeat, then if that still doesn't work we will discuss a trach. This doctor really understands what a big decision it is, and told me how we will make the decision together. Very comforting. Hopefully the oxygen works though! We will repeat the sleep study next week to see where we are. Oh, and he said if this continues long term it could lead to brain damage because she only breaths about half the time. Ah.
Physical therapy/Shriners: We had our first visit with outpatient therapy (not with Shriners). They showed us some stuff, mostly what we already know and do. We also meet met with Shriners hand specialists. She gave us some stretching excersises, and said we'll regroup in 3 months to see where we are at. But good news is Anabelles range of motion is great! She can flex her elbow's a little more then 90 degress, and extend about 30-45. She explained how Anabelle is a little backwards from typical AMC kids. I guess they usually see then with extended arms and flexed legs. But that's Anabelle! :D Nothing is 'normal' when it comes to her medical care. *sigh* But she said she is too small for splints right now, but maybe in 3 months we will try them. Also, she said she doesn't want to be too agressive because Anabelle will show us what she can do and needs help with, from there we will see what we can do to help her. She doesn't want to do something now that will damage her later.
GI: Since her reflux is still horrible, we have switched her to some RX formula. We have three to try, one a week. In three weeks we will follow up with GI and determine if anything helped and if not we will switch to a J-tube. It will help *hopefully* with the reflux, which in turn will help with her breathing. I love her GI. She doesn't fool around. She gets things done, and doesn't make us feel dumb when we have silly questions. And she has lots of energy. Maybe a little to much at times for this sleepy mom. I just pray this works!
Other than that, little Anabelle is just too cute! She smiles all the time now! And her big sister love love love her!!
Kyle and Amelia had a conversation the other day. I wasn't there so I could be misquoting.
Kyle - "You know Anabelle's special right?"
Amelia - "Yeah, like a present!"
Kyle - "Do you know what that means?"
Amelia -"Yeah, it's good!"
Melts my heart. They don't see her any different. Honestly I tear up when I just think about them together. Amelia wanted to cuddle with Ana, and actually sleep with her! Well.. I couldn't let her do that, but she just cuddled as long as she could. Ah! Got to love my kiddos. They remind me of what is important in life. <3
With love,
The Polks
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Home at last! - again
I'm not very good at keeping up with whole posting twice a week. Opps!
Well we got home with Miss Anabelle on Saturday, so we've been home for 5 days now. On our own. With this stinking G-tube stuff. It honestly hasn't been horrible. It's just difficult to move around the house while holding her. I feel like our home has transformed into some sort of hospital clinic now. We have an IV pole and all. Oh, and our dumb apnea monitor doesn't work correctly, or we're using incorrectly.
She is still having pretty bad reflux. She is just so darn sensitive. We lay her flat to change a diaper and it starts. And it's horrible. It usually doesn't come up, it just hang out in the back of her throat. Which isn't fun. I'm sure it is just sitting there burning her, and then she cries in pain, and I fear she will some day aspirate it. And she favors being held chest to chest, and dislikes being put down. We can sometimes get away with it, but usually not for long. We have to pad her swing so that she is basically sitting straight up. And she favors this one particular head position that makes it a little tough to lay her down on her back. Luckily our home therapy people let us borrow this pillow thing. It's called a Versa pillow. It's full of little beads, and you shape it how you want, then you can suck out all of the air and it holds its shape! We finally got to use it today. She is actually liking it, kinda.
I am also excited because they do craniosacral therapy! I just learned about it earlier this week, and was sure it would be hard to find, and expensive. Luckily I asked, and they do it! And it's free! I'm just hoping we can get enough visits for us to become comfortable enough to do it if we don't get visits for it at least weekly.
I don't know how I am going to get use to this life of doctors. I know we have just begun, but shoot! How do other families do this?! This week we have 6, yes 6! doctor appointments. In 5 days! This week we had pulmonology, two home visits, Shriner's for castings, a post op check, and sleep study.
Pulmonology didn't do too much. They said that they want her to see cardiology, neurology, and be followed by the pulmonology team. As far as positioning, just don't put her head to her chest. Duh. You see, Anabelle likes to arch her back and keep her airway open. It's hard for her to breath if she is in any other position, and sometimes even that position is hard. I mentioned Stridor, and they agreed, but didn't say yes or no. Just 'yeah, that's a possibility.' UGH. Like I tell Amelia, it's either yes or no.
On a good note, we weighed Anabelle at Shriner's on Tuesday. We use their scale for her weighted since she is there weekly. And guess what!? Little miss Belle is 7 POUNDS! So in twelve weeks, she's gained two pounds. Hopefully it's all due to the G-tube and it will just keep going up and up. Also, she is super visual. As always. In the NICU the nurses said she was very 'social'. She loves looking around and seeing what's going on. But now, she is starting to really look at you. She is smiling more and more, cooing, and just being such a cutie pie! It's tough because just laying her back a little to look at her and talk with her gives her reflux. It's just a balancing act. Right now her voice is pretty raspy from that, combined with crying a bunch. It's sad. We've been giving her Tylenol for any pain she might be having, as well as Zantac and Prevacid.
It's just nice having her home though. I'll take having us all together over a few extra hours of sleep and a more organized home. <3
With love,
The Polks
Well we got home with Miss Anabelle on Saturday, so we've been home for 5 days now. On our own. With this stinking G-tube stuff. It honestly hasn't been horrible. It's just difficult to move around the house while holding her. I feel like our home has transformed into some sort of hospital clinic now. We have an IV pole and all. Oh, and our dumb apnea monitor doesn't work correctly, or we're using incorrectly.
She is still having pretty bad reflux. She is just so darn sensitive. We lay her flat to change a diaper and it starts. And it's horrible. It usually doesn't come up, it just hang out in the back of her throat. Which isn't fun. I'm sure it is just sitting there burning her, and then she cries in pain, and I fear she will some day aspirate it. And she favors being held chest to chest, and dislikes being put down. We can sometimes get away with it, but usually not for long. We have to pad her swing so that she is basically sitting straight up. And she favors this one particular head position that makes it a little tough to lay her down on her back. Luckily our home therapy people let us borrow this pillow thing. It's called a Versa pillow. It's full of little beads, and you shape it how you want, then you can suck out all of the air and it holds its shape! We finally got to use it today. She is actually liking it, kinda.
I am also excited because they do craniosacral therapy! I just learned about it earlier this week, and was sure it would be hard to find, and expensive. Luckily I asked, and they do it! And it's free! I'm just hoping we can get enough visits for us to become comfortable enough to do it if we don't get visits for it at least weekly.
I don't know how I am going to get use to this life of doctors. I know we have just begun, but shoot! How do other families do this?! This week we have 6, yes 6! doctor appointments. In 5 days! This week we had pulmonology, two home visits, Shriner's for castings, a post op check, and sleep study.
Pulmonology didn't do too much. They said that they want her to see cardiology, neurology, and be followed by the pulmonology team. As far as positioning, just don't put her head to her chest. Duh. You see, Anabelle likes to arch her back and keep her airway open. It's hard for her to breath if she is in any other position, and sometimes even that position is hard. I mentioned Stridor, and they agreed, but didn't say yes or no. Just 'yeah, that's a possibility.' UGH. Like I tell Amelia, it's either yes or no.
On a good note, we weighed Anabelle at Shriner's on Tuesday. We use their scale for her weighted since she is there weekly. And guess what!? Little miss Belle is 7 POUNDS! So in twelve weeks, she's gained two pounds. Hopefully it's all due to the G-tube and it will just keep going up and up. Also, she is super visual. As always. In the NICU the nurses said she was very 'social'. She loves looking around and seeing what's going on. But now, she is starting to really look at you. She is smiling more and more, cooing, and just being such a cutie pie! It's tough because just laying her back a little to look at her and talk with her gives her reflux. It's just a balancing act. Right now her voice is pretty raspy from that, combined with crying a bunch. It's sad. We've been giving her Tylenol for any pain she might be having, as well as Zantac and Prevacid.
It's just nice having her home though. I'll take having us all together over a few extra hours of sleep and a more organized home. <3
With love,
The Polks
Oh, and here are a few pics of the latest hospital trek
'Uhh... mom, What is this thing?!'
She loved this thing! Don't tell, but it made it home with us :D
Comfy at the hospital
After surgery, hooked up to some machines; Her feeding pump, leads, pulse ox, as well as oxygen. She liked the bouncer/swing they had though!
Friday, May 18, 2012
Day 8 at the hospital
Yesterday Anabelle had a bad case of reflux. I laid her down to change her diaper, and BAM! She couldn't catch her breath, started to vomit, etc etc. I called her nurse once to see if her feedings were just a little to high for her to tolerate, and she said no, she's fine. And if she continues to have episodes then they will call the doctor. And just FYI, Anabelle is at risk for aspirating, so her reflux and vomit could go back down into her lungs. It's not a simple, 'Oh she's fine, no biggy. Just a little reflux.' So she was still having issues when the nurse left and I went out to request the doctor come by so we can talk to him, and went back to our room. I guess she followed me, cause as I walked in she was right behind me, luckily. Anabelle's stats went down and she was vomiting. At times it seems like the nurses only believe us when they see it for themselves. Then another nurse came in, and another. The put her on a nasal canula (I'm sure that's misspelled). Luckily she was doing better in the wee hours of the morning so they took it away.
Today was a big day for her. She got off oxygen, got her casts off, had a P/T consult, got an IV ripped out of her hand... Oh and she is still recouping from surgery 3 days ago. They bumped up her feeds from 10 mls, to 15 mls, to now 20 and fortified. She is on continous feeds, so she is getting 20 mls every hours, which is just under an ounce. She is still refluxing but seems to be ok.
OH. And we got Amelia and Allison back from sitters yesterday. They've been gone all week. And i don't know what ahppened, but Amelia's little attitude is horrible! She thinks she is way older then she is, and has attitude for 5 little girls. I don't know how we're going to live through her teen years.
I don't know how we will get through this next year! It's been so crazy and hectic these past few months. I feel like we haven't been able to really get anything done for Anabelle as far as her AMC goes. Oh, but her knees do look a lot more bent. But it just seems like we keep hitting dead ends with P/T and whatnot. So frustrating! That mixed with my disability issues and hiccups, and work needing papers and not understanding I'm not home right now, I live at the hospital currently. Stop calling me! Ok, I feel a little better now. Maybe...
Hopefully Anabelle can come home tomorrow, but I'm not holding my breath anymore. I've heard this so many times, I just want to make sure she is ready, no rush this time around. But I'd like to remove the stress from hospital trips from our mix. We will see!
With love,
The Polks
Today was a big day for her. She got off oxygen, got her casts off, had a P/T consult, got an IV ripped out of her hand... Oh and she is still recouping from surgery 3 days ago. They bumped up her feeds from 10 mls, to 15 mls, to now 20 and fortified. She is on continous feeds, so she is getting 20 mls every hours, which is just under an ounce. She is still refluxing but seems to be ok.
OH. And we got Amelia and Allison back from sitters yesterday. They've been gone all week. And i don't know what ahppened, but Amelia's little attitude is horrible! She thinks she is way older then she is, and has attitude for 5 little girls. I don't know how we're going to live through her teen years.
I don't know how we will get through this next year! It's been so crazy and hectic these past few months. I feel like we haven't been able to really get anything done for Anabelle as far as her AMC goes. Oh, but her knees do look a lot more bent. But it just seems like we keep hitting dead ends with P/T and whatnot. So frustrating! That mixed with my disability issues and hiccups, and work needing papers and not understanding I'm not home right now, I live at the hospital currently. Stop calling me! Ok, I feel a little better now. Maybe...
Hopefully Anabelle can come home tomorrow, but I'm not holding my breath anymore. I've heard this so many times, I just want to make sure she is ready, no rush this time around. But I'd like to remove the stress from hospital trips from our mix. We will see!
With love,
The Polks
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